Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Retarded




....OH! P.S. i decided to wait till my Dr appointment to see what were having. And i know it probably wont be, but just with all my bad baby luck in the past ( that most peopple dont know about, and i dont really like talking about :/ ...) It makes me really scared more than nervous to see it, and besides being affraid its not gonna live, im scared its gonna be deformed or mentally disabled. Cause i really cant deal with that... it'd be way hard.




I take care of mentally disabled people every day, and as much as i love them, they have it so rough, its hard sometimes dealing with the fact that they cant understand everything i want to say to them or do with them, and that we cant fully understand how they feel or what they want to do. i realize i take care of the extreme in some ways of disabled, where their parents kept them as long as they could handle them, which was until they were about 5 or 6, which is pretty understandable being that 2 out of the 6 of my girls are blind and deaf, one is just deaf, can see shadows and has downs syndrome, and 1 is blind and autistic and permanantly on pms...seriously, its simply wonderful. And one is blind, autistic, pica (which means she can and will eat ANYTHING...literally anything, she loves grass, and chewing on her chair while shes chilaxin, and cheese in the wrapper. which in addition to just being plain old mentally retarded makes it pretty hard for them to do stuff on their own. And as much as i love these girls and think of them as my own family... I dont think i could handle my own.




the end...




SO...besides my babbling about work, you can probably see why im so scared haha... Lets just hope it isnt...Fingers Crossed... My appointment is next tuesday at 10am ... yippee!

4 comments:

LeslieK said...

Hey Christie!!! Congrats on a baby! I can sympathize with you on being nervous, I haven't had the best luck either, so I'm wishing you good luck at your next appt!!

KT said...

Raisins! I am such a huge fan of your blog. And...YOUR PREGNANT! YEAH! Congratulations times a million, plus 4. I can't wait to hear what you're having. :-) I paid for thd 4D ultra sound thing, but my baby looked like a psychotic freak in all her pictures and now I can't sleep at night.

Kori & Troy said...

Chris, don't worry too much. I understand the worry, but don't let it take you over. Just be excited for the baby growing inside you!! :) I am sooo looking forward to finding out what you are having! I just CAN'T wait!! AND I love the things you have been making at work, maybe when I get back we can make stuff together ;) I love you!! You better call as soon as you find out you little turd! ;)

Tenille Gates said...

Come now, Christie..i doubt that you'll have a quazi-moto..stop scaring yourself and be excited :0) Your family has the cutest kids and yours wont be an exception! i miss you and hope everythings going good with youguys..let me know what you are having when you find out..i'll bet its a girlll :0) xoxo